Dear Greg,  this morning I heard you mentioning Apocalypse Now and it seems that movies disturbs you a bit and you do not understand or appreciate its point of view and value.

 

For some reason I was fascinated w/ the Vietnam war and the turmoil of and around it and I studied-up a bit. I really enjoyed Francis Ford Coppola's take on it w/ the theme of Joseph Conrad's Heart of Darkness. I like Coppol's purposeful use of The End by the Doors, that the studios quit backing him and he used his on money to finance the rest of it for completion and release, Lawrence Fishburn lying about his age to be able to work in the film, Martin Shenn's breakdown's, Marlon Brando.

 

Here is something I wrote in 1998 in reaction to the film after I had time to watch it a few times and digest it.

 

 

    Please,

do not judge me as a murderer for I do not judge

the world puppets you have created.

I do not judge you for this hell.

But do not judge me as a murderer

after you gave your puppets the order to murder

in the name of your cause, and, I am sick now.

Sick of this filthy shit rotted smell

that lingers through the jungle air.

 

Do not judge me as a murderer

when I killed for you and it was glorified.

Now I kill with nature's precision

and I do not think. I feel by senses.

Just because you have the right political backing

does it make your killings more valid than mine?

For - did not nature exist before man, anyhow?

 

(Written in 1998 by me)